GIA COMO on their state of flux
Their latest EP ‘FLUX’ (RR037) is a spellbinding collection of 6 tracks rounding out their current era.
Words by GIA COMO, photos by Duncan Wright.
“This song and recording is precious to me. It was always going to kind of stay hidden from the world as it is literally recorded at my most vulnerable time. 18 year old me wrote and recorded this on my phone within an hour, about a week after the biggest familial loss possible. I didn’t want to re-record it and have it all re-worked professionally, to me that would take away the raw, unfiltered feeling that this little demo evokes.”
“Madeleine is what my parents were going to call my twin sister, unfortunately she didn’t make it easily into this life the way I did. This track questions what my life would be like if she had grown up alongside me. How different would I be? Am I certain way way because there is a part of her inside me still? Has she been with me along? I kind of use the song to tell a story whilst grappling with these questions. A lot of people have described the song to me as nostalgic which is really interesting. What the hell is nostalgia, I made all that up! It never happened!”
“There’s a false nostalgia created in the track of memories of her that don’t actually exist, but are imaginary and idyllic.”
“I wrote this just after I had proposed to my partner and thankfully got a yes. It’s really a self exploration of where my head was at when we first met. I remember young me thinking, fuck, this person is literally the one I wanna spend the rest of my life with, but I’m 18! Ive met them too early! I didn’t have hope that a relationship beginning so young would actually have the longevity and go the distance, I was still figuring myself out. But, it’s just kept going, we’ve figured life and adolescence out together and now we’re married. The song is basically saying stick with something if your gut tells you it’s right, don’t get caught up in other people’s ideas of life, exploration, and relationships.”
“I wrote this back in 2019, at this point in life I was hell bent on diving as deep as I could into my own psyche. The two main caves that pulled me in were gender and grief. I feel good here, my mental health was on the up, it felt like I was dancing through a release of immense grief and in doing so was finding who I actually was. I’d spent 3 years grieving the loss of Ma, I hadn’t actually had those early adolescent years to focus on who I was. When I learnt that grief never leaves and it essentially becomes an extra limb, with you forever, it was a huge release. Now it was time to find my identity, find out who I am and have some fucking fun whilst doing so.”
“This is kind of a weird love song about a period when I was kind of autopilot (hence the Miraud track autopilot!). A little lost and a lot in love. I was kind of surrounding my pre-grieving personality and in limbo before I found my new self. The lyrics paint me as a vehicle to be directed and driven wherever you want to go, at this point I’m just floating, absorbing.”
“I could totally write some abstract wank in how I describe what this song is about but I think it’s important to not only completely vulnerable and open in the art I produce, but in moments like this when I’m asked why not to be called on Fridays. So here it is, it was a Friday when I was woken up by a call from my Dad that my Mum had died. Now yes, this was probably the worst day of my life. But wow, what a feeling. Our whole family had been through absolute torture for a year at this point and now that torture had stopped. It’s so hard to describe this feeling with words that I really just wanted to convey it through music, the instrumental outdo to this song is what that felt like, to me. An uneasy, stomach-churning euphoria of new beginnings emerging from the biggest loss I could imagine at the time and this overwhelming, overstimulating thought of what next.”
What next indeed…
‘FLUX’ EP out now.